K-H-U-L-E-T !!

awtsz..
everything`s stiLL fresh ..

Maybe because untiL now, i Can feeL aLL the ` REGRETS` ..

I wanna share the whoLe story .. [ yes, i wiLL .. Despite the Fact, HE might get MAD at me AGAIN.. ]

First, Let`s caLL him `KHULET [ you`LL know why afterwards ].. Ofcourse, i`LL give some hints about him .. He is one of the CLOSE FRIENDS i have .. i aCtuaLLy treat him aS my BEST BOY FRIEND .. HE TRUSTED ME THE WAY I TRUSTED HIM .. He teLLs me, everything about him, his Life , his schOoL , even his private LoveLife.. I heard him said once, that i`m one of the cLosest girLs to him ..He usuaLLy visits me at home and pLay his guitar and jam.. Hhmm .. [ Some of you may now know who i`m taLking about .. ]

But, i don`t know where the heLL of Me started thinking to do something that wiLL truLy DESTROY our friendship .. Damn those BAD Spirits aLL over me that gave the WORST REGRET of My Life !!! :(

The story begins with ME , texting him using another phone number .. [ that`s my brother`s number ] i pretended to be one of the many txts addicts who wanted to have textmates.. He`s too friendLy and accepted my invitaton .. By then , we became textmates .. [ TOO INTIMATE TEXTMATES!! ] He tells me his REAL NAME, whiLe me pretending to be KAMILLE VILLAR ..

But, just like others, he doubted on my real identity .. To make my seLf a LittLe near from reaLity , i created an aCCount on Friendster .. [ yeah right, BAD TINA !! ] I can`t remember where in the world i got KamiLLe`s piCtures, but KAMILLE`S pics were so daMn beautifuL .. That made him faLL.. [ haiyst.. ]

BOTH OF US SHOWED REAL CARE AND CONCERN.. [ Though , i know everythings wrong .. ] So, i`ve decided to bid him Goodbye.. I told him aLL the ALibis i know, to stop him from faLLing too much.. i even pretended to have my ex-bf back .. [ It wasn`t that easy ..] But that`s the right thing to do ..

Few weeks past, i had no choice but to text him AGAIN..

He has a girLfriend at that time, [ whom i know he truLy Loves..] So he can`t easiLy court kaMiLLe .. But to my surprise, they went off, then he started courting kaMs, thru text .. To make the story short, KamiLLe and KhuLet became Lovers :) [ KHULET was their terms of enDearment ] .. But, that doesn`t Lasts.. Because I felt guiLt.. [ EVERYHTING I`VE DONE WAS A BIG BIG MISTAKE !! ] So, KamiLLe broke up with him ..

The story doesn`t end there.

The MOST REGRETFUL PART WAS , HE TELLS ME VERYTHING ABOUT HIM AND KAMILLE !!! NOT KNOWING THAT KAMILLE AND I WERE THE SAME PERSON .. Among his friends, i`m his onLy crying shOuLder .. Everytime he needs my heLp, everytime he needs my adviCe, I FEEL GUILT !! [ he even texted me, TINA PA HUG SUMISIKIP NA NAMAN DIBDIB KO !!. That was the time when they broke up .. ]

haiyst.. It was October when they broke up .. And that was the Last communication they had ..

985674112598infinity AngeLs were aLL around me and Gave me the courage to be myseLf and teLL him everything ..

DECEMBER 28, 2007 NOVA STOP ..

i`ve decided to teLL him Everything .. EVERYTHING !! i prepared myseLf on aLL the PossibiLities that might haPPen ..

i`m giving him hints teLLing that i`m kaMiLLe ViLLar .. As i expected, at first he doesn`t beLieve me .. [ Of course, i`m the onLy one who knows about him and KamiLLe so i might be kidding around . . ] See? HOw he trust me so much not beLieving me that im KamiLLe ..

The day before [ December 27, 2008 ] As KamiLLe , i gave him a caLL .. [ which he didn`t answer .. ] After a month-Long of no Communication, it was 2:36 in the afterrnoon .. [ see? untiL now, i remember everything .]
That caLL was the evidence that i`m the F*CKING KAMILLE VIILAR !!.. He asked me what time did KamiLLe caLLed him, Then i answered the exact time .. That made Him reaLized that i`m KamiLLe ..

SILENCE was aLL around us [ Though our friends were just around us, `cause were having our drinking session by then ..] the whoLe night i stayed quiet, though my whoLe spirit was off and dying ..

He got mad, as expected .. But He didn`t bLame it aLL on Me .. He even said it was his fauLT for faLLing tOo muCh .. That`s it .. He toLd me it`s Okay .. But the trust won`t be the same .. [ it`s easier said than done .. ]

He toLd me it`s fine, but EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED ..

REGRET REGRET ..

i ceLebrated New Year with very heavy emotions .. But a LitLLe bit contented ..

CHANGES CHANGES...

Now, it`s been 6 months since i toLd him everything ..

WE USED TO BE CLOSE FRIENDS ..

WE USED TO EXCHANGE SECRETS ..

WE USED TO PLAY MUSIC TOGETHER ..

WE USED TO HANG OUT TOGETHER ..
I MISSED EVERYTHING ..

THE CHITCHATS ..

THE TAMBAYAN ..

THE KULITAN ..

I MISSED HIM ..

Our Friendship now ? WE ARE CIVIL ..

BUT NOW, IM SLOWLY GETTING USED TO IT ..

:)